im currently in a super christian horrible transphobic group home (that my transphobic parents put me in) and everybody here (namely other residents, but some staff as well) keeps calling me by my deadname and constantly calls me slurs and try jumping me and stuff simply because im trans. weirdly enough though, i feel somewhat validated? like a big part of my own self invalidation was not really experiencing too much transphobia compared to some others, most of the people i chose to surround myself with were open-minded and accepting, so when others discussed transphobic people doing horrible things to them i would feel almost left out. however, this new perspective has come with the cost of me now questioning every single life decision and constant suicidal ideation!!!! :3 so silly