I can’t go on without saying this:
there’s at least 5 people I can name who still think i’m transphobic (btw, i’m not). They actively dislike, if not hate me. And they mostly spread false information.
Every day, I think about these people. The fact that I caused these people to hate me, it f*cks with me. (I don’t curse, but that’s the only word for it.) I cannot get them out of my head.
How did this happen? How are we at a point as a community that it is acceptable to put your ideologies and beliefs over another person’s mental health? Did I cause this? Or did I just reveal what was already there? How did I make them hate me, and why haven’t we been reconciled yet?
Every single thing I do is for these people. I need to make them like me again. I need to stop the hate. I did this, and yet they refuse to let me fix it. They refuse to fix it.
I can’t solve this problem. I need to solve it. And at some point in the future, it will all fall down. Something is going to happen. I don’t know what to do.
It’s in my head. Chaos is in my head. These people are in my head. The hate is in my head.
Discord messages fly through my mind, people making fun of me, people unfollowing me, people saying “any reasonable person would disagree with oren,” people insulting me.
Please help.
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you have the right to not get repeated hate messages, but other people have the right not to interact with you. (as long as they’re not causing hate). sometimes you have to accept that some people aren’t going to be your best friend (trust me this won’t be the last time 
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I know but look at this stuff:
I usually agree with Micah, but what?? I’m not trying to force them on others (even other people agree: https://wasteof.money/posts/631e2fe80b8dc7e72762e549#comments-631f52f5acf05101402f3ca5)
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well did you ever specifically say that you believe LGBTQ+ people should be allowed to be themselves? when you say you have a certain opinion, you should make it clear where your boundaries lie, people can’t be expected to “assume” what you mean. even if you do, people don’t have to want to interact with you . i do agree that after a certain point, people should stop bringing it up, though.
the other thing about religion is that it is usually what you believe to be the truth. if I say that I deeply believe in something that other people think is incorrect, it is inherently a political statement. just like LGBTQ+ people have every right to be mad at Obama for originally saying that he believed gay marriage was “less holy”.
to many people, if you hold something about other people (that doesn’t affect/harm you or anybody else) as one of your core, fundamental beliefs, they see it as you saying that (because most people think their religion is the best) that you think that in an ideal world (where everybody believes the same thing you do) that you wouldn’t want them to be themselves.