i would be constantly reliving the worst moments of my life if i did something medical, i don’t like science as much as i say i do so i would suck at anything sciency (plus i don’t think it would be very interesting), i would have to be a cop for a while for anything criminal investigation, which i otherwise think i would enjoy the most and would be the best use of my skills and interests, i wouldn’t feel like i was helping anyone if i was something history related,
and unfortunately all of my motivation for school comes from having an end goal.