found a pin account with my name and with boards ab the beatles and silent film what is happening
its kinda crazy uh. life moves too fast. too, too fast. that wasnt six months ago, that wasnt a year ago, that wasnt two. i. im too old. i’ll be too old. all im doing is getting older—im not making any thing of it. i havent done anything exceptional in years—sure, im a published author, but, god, thats old, old news. ive fell off. i plan to do exceptional things, but everyone will be dead by then, nothing but ghosts to congratulate me on my milestones, or share in my troubles, or to share in those everyday joys which i suppose can be experienced alone but are double or triple the joy when with another. those i must experience with only my own suffocating thoughts to accompany me. i dread just the thought of it. all my family dead, all my friends long gone, and perhaps i will meet more but i fear they will only remind me of the others, as is already happening. remind me of friends which i have left and regret doing so, friends who have left me and which i wonder if, of the situation, there is nothing i couldve done better to keep their love, friends who have left, simply left, no thought to it or no choice, or those which have drifted away without want from either party, but are still there to talk to—if i could muster the courage. if i could muster the courage! god! all my problems will leave me then. then i will not leave my friends, then i will not make my friends want to leave me, then i will not drift away from them, +
i got shingles prevention ads when i was just listening to music from like the fifties and early sixties and now im getting botox ads as im listening to music from the thirties
whats really funny is, despite almost always drawing people that look at least sort of similar to me, i’ve never drawn someone with a cleft chin. like, ever.
“exposure therapy” i say as i literally just play a song i haven’t heard in a year
do you think if we lived in a hamster ruled society and their dutch evolved similar to ours that they would name amsterdam as hamsterdam
omg first i was talking ab joshua graham all the time and then what we know happened did happen and i was talking about that all the time. girlie. take a break. you dont have to be talking about a mormon 24/7 :( its okay.
omg this slaps why’d he have to die before he could properly flesh it out i’m going to cry