context: life around my household sucks. there's so much fighting/arguing. I love my parents a lot but they can be pretty unreasonable sometimes. my sister hates them with a passion - why? I have no idea. I have little to no motivation to work on things I spend money on. my job is quite boring, I have to work 6 hours a week for not much pay. I get incredibly jealous of people online here, such as [redacted] because they [redacted.] I spend countless hours doom scrolling through YouTube shorts because I'm so bored and can't think of something actually enjoyable to do. when I find something interesting to do it probably lasts for a few days to a couple weeks and then I get bored again and just play minecraft bed wars and stuff. I play on a server with my friends, but the person who pays for it/administrates it is abusive to us. I rarely get to spend time talking to my friends on it because I'm probably banned half of the time for no apparent reason - the rules are pretty unreasonable. I listen to music sometimes thinking it'll cheer me up. It might, for maybe a few days before it becomes boring. tl;dr bad family life, boredom, and not much interaction with friends outside of school