i was rereading some stuff i wrote to you like a year ago sorry i was so idk pissy i cant think of my alt word for that , ab u saying you had adhd idk erm i lowkey felt like. well some people lwk just spout that and claim it for everything but i think if you research whatever it is you probs have a good chance of knowing whether or not u have it, ofc idk some people might be looking for stuff and claiming theyve found it but i dont think thats what its like for everyone i was lwk just really annoying and also trying to deny that anything was wrong with myself either, not true not even if you ignore it yk, ocd is a perfect explanation to what ive experienced especially in SO many manifestations in the past two years, and lowkey idk something like 30% of people with ocd have autism or other way around and erm my brother and mother and father have all guessed that before. so. that might be as well possible but uhm i know thats not an excuse for my behavior, not is any thing possibly wrong with me or what my current opinion was then of what was or might be wrong with me, i am simply trying to offer an explanation for why i was rude hah. i very much apologize and hope as well you will forgive me.
tyy idk where even to start LOLLL just bascially i was stressed cause my dad was having delirium w/o a known cause like they legit had no clue why he was going insane </3 all the scans showed nothing, he was in the hospital like three weeks as well, the rehab like twoo,, it was crazy we thought he was gonna uhmm leave the house and go to longterm instead of living here, we thought that like idk four weeks it was freaking me outtt , and im FAILING SCHOOL IM LEGIT STILL INB EIGHTH … finished bible + world geo + physical science, got a, a , and b BUT LEGIT OFF OF AN A BY ONE POINT BRO ONE WHOLE POINT IT WAS AN 88 AND 89 IS AN A. i was so mad. i was really bad at science too and got it bacjk up to a 89 just like a few weeks before the end and i had to cram and my dad was in the hospital and i was STILL RECOVERING from a cold AND on my period and all during that week obvi got cs on most tests so i ended the year with a freaking 88,.. anyway, i have to finbihs lang in the year two weeks or i get kicked out and ive been LOCKED OUT OF MY PROGRAM FOR A WEEK CAUSE MY MOM FORGOT SHE GOT A NEW CARD AND HAD TO SWITCH IT OVErrr,, and then i get another extension for math until august 7./// and then two weeks later i start school agaiun.. cant wait for my two week summer. im . violent. anyway its probs good i get depressed if im not in school lowkey so . just like seasonal depression cause the weahter sucks, cant go outside for long withou feeling awful, my outifts suck cause limited l
layering, i look like a bright red beautiful shining ruby if i go outiside more than five mins, UGHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!! but this year my dad might get up more so maybe he can sit at the pool and i can swim, since this year for the first tinme in like two years i uhmm overcame the fact i felt like a harlot wearing a swimsuit and swam so yuppie.!!! i love swimming its so funnn!!!!!