anyway uhm yeah its just it was lwk unexpected by ,,, at least me,, everyone looks at me like im insane when i say that and hes been like proper delirious the last three months so its just kind of insane nothing feels real ,,, haha, and in other news my therapist told me based on test results i have severe depression and severe anxiety, and ocd tendencies which might in time lead to a diagnosis of something if a i have something, b she notices more signs of it and c i follow up with a proper shrink (shes a therapist but not a psychologist so she can like listen to me and suggest things but not diagnose ) and a sensory processing disorder or something idk she said like three words ive never heard in my life and it revolved around sensory issues but yeah !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and we have to move in ten days thankfully we’re stayibng in the same complext but i just idk i have so many memories here and he legit died here so im partially really really thankful we’re moving but also omg i hate packing i hate moving i just wish life was how it was six months ago it seems like heaven compared to today i cant even describe . oh and I AM STILL NOT DONE WITH THE EIGHTH FREAKING GRADE IM NEARLY FIFTEEN….