i hate my life sometimes. i express my hatred of life a lot. i do a bad job of instantly going to the first discord server that i see and venting there. it's become a really bad habit of mine and i want to stop it. this page will be venting a lot, and if you expect more than that then check out my darflen profile. i use it more than this site. https://darflen.com/users/--
today my dad basically told me my videos are meaningless straight to my face
this absolutely shattered my heart, i've finally been getting back into a rhythm with content creation but now i honestly don't know if i want to keep going anymore
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day 1 no youtube, already experiencing crazy withdrawals
jet lag has fucked my sleep schedule, today i kinda woke up at a reasonable time but i'm eepy right n
we should already have arrived but we just boarded… can't complain though if it wasn't entirely cancelled
but there's still two more flights to go after this one (assuming they don't stop at the last second)
flight delayed four hours! we're traveling for a whole extra day! now we don't get to see all the family we want to!
my mom is absolutely bawling… and rightfully so! the plane STILL NEEDS A FUCKING PART and isn't even on its way to the airport, so this bullshit fucks all of our (already small) visiting plans up
we all just want to get to australia
flight delayed four hours! we're traveling for a whole extra day! now we don't get to see all the family we want to!
my mom is absolutely bawling… and rightfully so! the plane STILL NEEDS A FUCKING PART and isn't even on its way to the airport, so this bullshit fucks all of our (already small) visiting plans up
we all just want to get to australia
she said no
why am i surprised… why am i like this…
it's so fucking embarrassing when they say no, i'm a fickle bastard that has never gotten a yes so why am i even trying
she let me subtly flirt right before??? like if she wanted to draw boundaries why didn't she do it right then and there? fucking hell i'm so conflicted… why am i overthinking this, especially when i completely expected this outcome
I FUCKING DESPISE TETRIS.COM THE GAME SUCKS THERE ARE SO MANY BUGS THAT ONLY AFFECT PEOPLE LIKE ME I HATE THAT I'M SO GOOD AT THE GAME
grinding for a world record literally feels like gambling, no exaggeration i have spent hours and hours of my day just spamming attempts, either getting bad rng or making stupid random mistakes, and i’m forgetting to fucking eat in the process! it's super unhealthy for me and it's fucking my mental health in the ass because i know i'm fully capable of doing it, i just… can't
(the bounty for the record is $1)
(i am stressing this much over a singular usd)