i hate my life sometimes. i express my hatred of life a lot. i do a bad job of instantly going to the first discord server that i see and venting there. it's become a really bad habit of mine and i want to stop it. this page will be venting a lot, and if you expect more than that then check out my darflen profile. i use it more than this site. https://darflen.com/users/--
i would never say this to my dad's face
screw you. blamed me for something that doesn't involve you. i'm already fucking beat and exhausted and the moment i get home and step inside i get told off because i was a microsecond late. why does it even matter to you? i've already taken accountability anyways??? all this bullshit does is teach me to lie. like my fucking bad for being honest. next time i'll lie and say i wasn't. just like how i lied about not having cake for dinner again. the outcome would have been the exact same either way. i felt bad, beat myself up about it in front of coworkers, realized it wasn't that big of a deal and moved on. but then guess what he said. "you need to learn to take control of yourself" ?????? !?! ???!??!!??????!?? NO FUCKING SHIT????????????? THAT'S WHAT I'M DOING?? YOU'RE THE ONE CONTROLLING ME LIKE I'M STILL A LITTLE CHILD?? you were LITERALLY the one who ENCOURAGED me to do things before i left?? and i said NO because i knew i was on a time crunch? the fucking audacity man. i can't. i'm too tired for this. fuck man. and this is just one of the stupid things he's done today. shit is actively stunting my social growth and he's somehow still never noticed. fml. having to play it off all the fucking time. FUCK.
yesterday i had no homework and had the most generational meltmaxxing session of all time. it was amazing
i'm realizing my music taste has slowly morphed over time and has become my main source of escapism. also part of the reason i feel like it's a sensitive topic because that forces myself to feel vulnerable when i talk about it. i'm so dependent on it that if someone says it's not for them i feel bad for liking it as much as i do
what if there was a real prince rupert guy and he was really strong and stuff but he would immediately shatter into a bajillion pieces if he ever got sucked off
me when i have everything under control and haven't done anything wrong yet i am still having my phone and everything taken for no reason 
like actually fuck my life it's almost like that's the only way i'm able to communicate with literally anyone. sick of this bullshit. i'm 18 in a few months btw
bye for another week
it was funny the 0th time
