i hate my life sometimes. i express my hatred of life a lot. i do a bad job of instantly going to the first discord server that i see and venting there. it's become a really bad habit of mine and i want to stop it. this page will be venting a lot, and if you expect more than that then check out my darflen profile. i use it more than this site. https://darflen.com/users/--
just because it's the right thing to do doesn't mean it can't suck.
i have been delaying the inevitable. not really a breakup because we had never really established a label in the first place, but in my eyes it may as well be one. i saw it coming from a mile away. we have like nothing in common really, other than we would do nyt games with each other. but even that got "too competitive" or something...
a few days ago i asked her on a date. the day before we go she says she has lost interest in me, she doesn't want to call everyday anymore, and that i have been too close to her. i apologize and tell her i respect her boundaries. then the very next day after the date she's back to calling me multiple times a day
i know this will probably not be the last time this happens to me. oh well. but i'm glad i got the experience nonetheless. my xp bar is much less low than it was before (reference). i made my own fair share of mistakes but i'm more than happy to learn from them.
this whole thing is kinda disorganized. but last thing. never change who you are for someone else. i know this gets said a lot but sometimes you don't realize exactly how it applies to your life.
hopefully i can move on quickly
i bought one pack of gum and got a full blown interrogation because of it
i wanted to get myself ice cream for dessert and i got shut down in the most humiliating way possible (and almost threw up)
and when i acknowledge both of these things i get yelled at more
guess what today is? that's right! it's taco tuesday!
hi everyone, guess what today is??? after half a decade of existence, wasteof.money has officially turned five years old!! this achievement wouldn’t have been possible without our lovely user base, so thank you all, and here’s to another five 
blue pill: keep living basic and simple life while being babied by parents
red pill: be free and actually live life with friends like literally everyone else my age does
black pill: become uhh youtube famous idfk
i was gonna make a post about me liking girl thighs but then i realized it's june and i can't be straight
parents be like “what's up with these multiple long calls a day with banana” i'm like what do you THINK like son 618 
we really want to hang out together but my parents don't want us to be. how generic!
today she came by and gave us fudge bars :))))) but my parents are still horrified that she would ever do such a horrible thing
Code Name: Banana
i wrote this at midnight so it is probably way too disorganized but oh well, that's how my brain works
prom was the most fun i have ever had in my life. not sure if that's a testament to it or if it shows how little i spend time with friends.
back in march i asked my crush, banana, to prom and she said yes! booyah! however, at the same time, my parents were trying to force me to go with someone else instead. they were really fucking pissed that i chose banana because they didn't know her at all, but i told them that doesn't really matter? anyways i am severely underplaying the deal they made out of this, it got so bad that i almost called it all off just because they weren't letting me do anything with her. they eventually finally stopped caring but pretended like they never did. holy fucking manipulation!!! pissed me the everliving fuck off!
anyways, fast forward to a few hours before prom night. banana had changed plans without me knowing, which upset my parents, and they made me call her for them to help them understand everything, and she blew up at me for not following along. oh well. i was really mad at the time but in retrospect it was her mostly blowing up at my parents, which was very much justified. prom time! we take a bunch of photos (all of mine were awkward but oh well), then we change the already changed plans and go take photos somewhere else too. oh well. photos were fun though
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had my first prom yesterday, still not sure how i feel about it. expect a rant eventually