OKAY rant time. idk how to put this down coherently actually but. yeah so. school. i'm the new kid i'm kind of scared of everyone and everything. but there's this boy named carter a grade above me, who i sit next to in band class, and he’s willing to like. talk to me when i have no friends and help show me the ropes of like. how to function in our school band and jazz band. and he also sits at the same table as me at lunch because he’s dating one of the other freshman girls, so we’ve got 9 freshman girls plus carter crammed around one round table at lunch and yet still nobody’s talking to me. except carter, he always found a way to involve me in the conversation and put more effort into that than the other girls did. and we both really like sports and we become like. good friends. and then people start rumors that we like each other (we don’t) (he has a girlfriend) or at least that i like him. actually the only person who said carter liked me was tanner and he’s a fricking weirdo and i hate him and i’m glad he switched schools. sorry i’m off topic. but yeah multiple people said i liked carter which i didn’t so that made me like. kinda scared to talk to him more because. he has a girlfriend. i don’t want to be a weirdo. everyone thinks i like him GOD FORBID I MAKE FRIENDS WITH A BOY. uhm yeah so anyway we hang out a lot on the band trip to branson and stuff he deceives me into going on a really big rollercoaster for my first ever rollercoaster </3 but it was fun. anyway [+]
[-] actually this might have been before the band trip but he misses a day of school (he never does) (even when he’s sick) (he gave me a nasty cold once because he wouldn’t just stay home) and i find out it’s because he’s shadowing at the other big christian school in town. not from him but from some of his friends. the next day i try to ask him why he was gone and where he was and he just says “i was not here” like no shit sherlock? avoiding the subject final boss. but anyway it’s eventually confirmed (not through him obvi) that he’s going to the other big christian school in town next year. and eventually during band one of the other sax players asks him where he’s going next year and he FINALLY admits it and i ask him why and he says “it’s a long story and i’m not really allowed to talk about it” ?????????? his parents both worked at my school and all his younger brothers went here as well. they’re all leaving apparently. and i don’t have his number or anything because yknow i don’t want to seem like a weirdo so i can’t like talk to him ever again !! wow !! fun times !! anyway holy yap my bad bro
omg WHAT. omg im so sorry i dont even know how to respond, i cant imagine like being in a situation like that wth, i hope he uhmm is able to tell you why soon?? what on earth thats so cruel im sorry :-( and im sorry the kids in ur grade are such uhh i forgot the world like rumormills, i hope the set of kids next year is better or if they are the same maybe that they get a freaking BRAIN.. NO worries about yapping dw it wasnt even that long of one and it was DEF for a good reason holy crap. i hope somehow you’re able to talk?? :( maybe email, that seems less like personal than phone but you can still keep in chat? im not sure 
im sorry i really wish i was more help