omg but is it free on #tubi thats the onyl screaming platform i own

omg i wish i could write fics theres so much i would write about im always just paranoid that my grandmother and brother are #watchingmefrom . different afterworlds. anyway so and that theyll judge me for it and lowkey also God Jesus Mary Joseph and my polish great grandparents but not my grandparents because all but two were silly goofy in a most monsterous way so i dc what they think about me

also lokwy i dont have anything like. writable. i dont watch any writable media or . read any. or. anything. uhmmm i just watch movies and uhhh play games #fouryearold ,, i draw fanart but even that i feel like like. my ancestors are going to call me cringe for. this is as im writing this out im realizing this is a very strange and unique problem . but anyway i love fallout soooo much i mm im making a fan game on microsoft about fallout which i guess is kind of a fanfic anyway its set in fallout . probs 3 cause i like the visuals of three and uhm . its close to me. but the story is uhm about ghoulification cause i feel like there are so few stories in fallout ab it and its such an interesting concept and i suppose one i could play around with to relate to, i mean, imagine having someone close to you become a ghoul before your very eyes. its a slow process, so one day they wont have all their function in their eyes or more fatigue or something small like that, then teeth will fall out and changes in behavior, and youll worry for your safety, youll worry for your life, you’ll worry that you’ll lose whomever is having this happen to them. what if they become violent? what if theyre violent to others, but not you? what if you feel guilty for this exclusion? what if they forget who you are one day? i imagine its an idea played with sometime in fallout, some fallout some where, but i guess i havent played that much, or that part. i guess the closest thing in my knowle

ledge is uhm theres this one guy whos already a ghoul but becomes worse and also a like tree takes over his body, it all happens over the span of like 1 2 and 3 , and over the whole u..s.a., but i guess i mean that same thing more personal. and also from the start, from having an absolutely normal person to a feral, you know? i think there are instances in the series of games where people become ghoulified post war, i know theres hancock but thats cause of drugs and theres , in the show, whatshisface but i forgot why he became one. i dont know, i think its a possibility. esp as someone would become older, you dont know how radiation would affect them differently, you dont know if they would become weaker and have less resistance to it as older people are with most things, or , really what at all. its an interesting concept.