@nihilev

about this alt

this is @mef’s alt for anything exceptionally strange

this includes:

• posts that I would consider too weird to post on my main with over 100 followers

• brain logs (odd internal conversations, mental catastrophes, and various other things)

• stuff about OCs, or even self aware ones posting on this account (this account was originally made for my OC Nihilev)

• and more

ANY POSTS MADE ABOUT IDENTITY ARE NOT NECESSARILY CONFIRMATION AND ARE OFTEN EXPERIMENTATION

[ internal scan logs ]

[!] active(?) remnant of ENT:DRAGON detected in SEC[UNSTBL]:_PURGATORY
status: alive, damaged, [in constant cycle of decay and reset], scared?
action to be taken: none, continue observation
[!] it is aware of this
response: whatever <O>

[ status update ]
// ENT = entity, active thoughtform

ENT:DRAGON confirmed completely nonoperational, either deceased or in extended deep hibernation
recovery chance is low, recovery will not be attempted
ENT:PROTOS fused to ENT:CORE, position of primary generator assumed
updating of network (internet) userdata is scheduled at an undefined time, low-medium priority
// aka I'm going to update my pfps and such at some point

ONE (1) VISUAL FILE CREATED
EXPORT? [Y/N]
> Y
EXPORTING TO TANGIBLE MEDIUM...
DONE
UPLOAD? [Y/N]
> Y
UPLOADING MEDIA...
DONE

[NEUROS OUTPUT FEEDBACK]
On a scale of one to ten
how understandable are my posts on here on average
ten is “I entirely understand”
one is “I have absolutely no clue what the fuck you’re talking about”
written feedback is also appreciated!

[*reviewing dream data before it disappears*]
...
[!!] ATTENTION: SEARCH MATCH DETECTED
ITS THE FEATURE, THE CREATURE FEATURE, THE FEATURE ABOUT BEING A CREATURE
ITS FINALLY HAPPENED
YAYYYY
(I’ve been looking to see if I would ever have a dream about being a creature and it finally happened)

sorry for being somewhat cryptic and edgy

I think maybe posting my mind's internal activity for the entertainment of 
strangers generally isn't the best idea

why the hell does operation of neural systems have to be so unintuitive sometimes
why yes, of course loudly declaring that something is dead because
it hasn't been properly active in months makes it come back
probably just to die again
or maybe to live
or maybe to die
who knows
anything I say about my brain has a half life of 2 to 8 weeks
cycles of unknown, why do I even talk about on here

SYSTEMS STATUS

[CORE] PURGING
[DRAGON] VIOLENT, REFACTORING SYSTEMS  // FUCK YOU WHY DO YOU KEEP DOING THIS [[ITS YOUR FAULT, YOU HAVEN'T CHANGED]]
[PROTOS] recalibrating
[FERALIS] influencing
[ABYSSAL] standby

OVERALL STATUS: guh

[!] full system decontamination complete

STATUS
[CORE] online
[ABYSSAL] online
[PROTOS] offline?
[FERALIS] online?
[DRAGON] DECEASED // status will be removed in future updates

systems returned to null

no matter how much I keep purging systems (for no good reason) PROTOS refuses to die and I’m so proud of it

[system update log]

generative systems spooled up

DRAGON system, core ejected: beyond repair
core replacement successful?

ABYSSYIAZ deity system reset
new system generated: ORDER, CHAOS, POWER, LIFE
relationships successfully formed
predicted drive power: significant

wait a fuckin minute
wizards
... I have an idea

when FLESH is MACHINE is FLESH is MACHINE is FLESH is MACHINE is FLESH is MACHINE is FLESH is ...
do: [U_SET.ALL]

you thought you were gonna see [neuros system logs] but instead you get:

[access denied]
:P
reason:
don't want to
actual reason:
see above
reason for not wanting to:
idk, you don't get to >:P