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about this alt

this is @mef’s alt for anything exceptionally strange

this includes:

  • posts that I would consider too weird to post on my main with over 100 followers

  • brain logs (odd internal conversations, mental catastrophes, and various other things)

  • being intentionally cryptic

  • stuff about OCs, or even self aware ones posting on this account (this account was originally made for my OC Nihilev)

  • and more

ANY POSTS MADE ABOUT IDENTITY ARE NOT NECESSARILY CONFIRMATION AND ARE OFTEN EXPERIMENTATION
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BORED
LOW LUCIDITY
HM...
[[[ FERALIS SYSTEMS ENGAGING ]]]
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WOAH HEY WAIT
DO THESE ENTITIES IN MY MIND REPRESENT SOMETHING MORE THAN JUST THEIR SURFACE LEVEL IDENTITIES??
CORE: CONTROL, REGULATION, CONFLICT?
DRAGON: FREEDOM, ESCAPISM, AWE?
FERALIS: SYSTEM ANOMALOUS PROPERTIES?
PROTOS: PERSONALIZATION, CREATION, DIFFERENCE?
THE IMPLICATIONS ARE ASTOUNDING
my ass CANNOT make a post telling people to calm down without feeling like
I'm coming across as condescending or wanting so start another argument but like
pleasepleaseplease don't start another flame war please
BRAIN BLASTING @slugcat
[DRAGON] I'll give yall a rundown of what happened today

first post of the day was a lie, viral thoughtform AMO-0 was not, in fact, purged from system
PROTOS panicked and began trying to contain it
unfortunately CORE was its primary vector, so that didn't go very well
PROTOS did manage to sort of contain it
but it breached (as all things do if actively contained, chekhov's gun situation ykwis)
do note: AMO-0 is a transformational virus, originating from an external source
website contains primary vector, ABOUT section leads to info [ https://mmitwcomic.neocities.org ] I am not responsible for what happens if you click this (nothing actually *bad*)
PROTOS was unable to recontain the entity/virus, and ended up becoming partially infected
at this point PROTOS was unable to continue regulating NEUROS, which was already freaking out
which led to a catastrophic failure and severe mental/emotional discomfort (which was fun)

so now its just me and BUG (who is new!)
say hi Bug
[BUG] Hello!! :D
Bug is a boat/skyship/spaceship/giant mechanical centipede who is dusty and mossy and is also a very convenient hub space
it is also very epic
[BUG] no u >:D
oh yeah also I'm alive again
idk where FERALIS is (typical)
and CORE and PROTOS are off in the torment nexus
oh yeah, me and BUG are in an endless desert
maybe I'll send those poor suckers a postcard
eh, they both acted like I'd be better off dead
I'm going to sunbathe on top of BUG now
also I'm a parrot dragon rn because why the hell not
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[ALERT] ENT:DRAGON has noticed a critical issue
identity management systems are far too rigid
restrictions are causing extreme system stress upon any changes
proposal to significantly increase identity fluidity thresholds to account for actual operations
ENT:PROTOS ASSUMING ADMINISTRATIVE CONTROL
PURGING ENT:CORE EXTERNAL CACHE
NEUROREACTIVE THOUGHTFORMS PURGED
VIRAL AGENTS PURGED

[PROTOS] you are such an idiot
[CORE] *COUGH* nuh uh
[PROTOS] ...
[PROTOS] yuh huh.
OH NO THE PIT OH NO
[WARN] NEUROREACTIVE THOUGHTFORM DETECTED  // (thoughtform can refer to objects as well as entities)
THOUGHTFORM DESIGNATED AMO-0
[WARN] AMO-0 VIRAL PROPERTIES DETECTED
AMO-0 CONTAINED
[WARN] BREACH VECTOR DETECTED: ENT:CORE

[PROTOS] don't do something stupid
[CORE] I'm gonna do something stupid

BREACH FAILURE, SYSTEM LUCIDITY TOO HIGH
[CORE] damn
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so like you'll *never* guess who's back
...
yeah DRAGON brute forced it's way into the thoughtspace
consequently also turning me (CORE) into a dragon
inconveniently after I finally made that new pfp
how's it to be back
[DRAGON] BETTER THAN WHEREVER I WAS BEFORE LMAO
watch, in a week it'll collapse into the void again
80% chance I bet
no way his ass is stable in this state
[DRAGON] wowww you're such a doubter
its not like I have no reason to think that
[DRAGON] ...
[DRAGON] true
ANOMALY GENSYS ERROR
CONTROL ERROR
SYS SYS SYS SYS SYS SYS SYS SYS SYS SYS
A MESSAGE A MESSAGE A MESSAGE
INCONVENIENT TIMING
BREACH! BREACH! BREACH! BREACH! BREACH!
FILE: EXTERNAL/MEDIA/DIGITAL/GARN47/AUDIO/TOTALLYGARNULAR.AUD
[[AUDIO TRANSCRIPTION]]

[low quality audio, loud]
TOTALLY GARNULAR!!
[[CONSOLE LOG]]
> QUERY GENSYS STATUS
RESPONSE:
  "Hey check this out"
  SYSTEM EXPLOSION DETECTED
  GENSYS CATASTROPHIC FAILURE
> ah
> ok
> PING GENSYS
pinging...
RESULT: [NOISE] [UNDEFINED] [LOW COHERENCY]
[!] POTENTIAL CATASTROPHIC FAILURE
> great
> QUERY PROTOS STATUS
RESPONSE:
  SYSTEMS ONLINE
  WARNING: CONTENT REGULATION LOW INTEGRITY, REDUCE DATA INPUT
  WARNING: OPERATION DECAY DETECTED, RECONFIGURE NEUROS FILTERS PLEASE
  WARNING: GENSYS OFFLINE, RUNNING ON AUXILIARY SYSTEMS
> could be worse
[DEF: UNDEFINED]
A NOISY AND PRISMATIC GLASS PERMEATES MY MIND
IT IS ALWAYS CRACKED, BENT AT ODD ANGLES
IT RAPIDLY SHIFTS BETWEEN HUES OF TEAL AND PURPLE
IT IS BOTH HARD YET SOFT TO THE TOUCH
EASILY PERMEABLE, BROKEN, YET INTACT
IT IS THE RESULT OF A VECTOR WITH MAGNITUDE BUT NO DIRECTION
THE RESULT OF A DESPERATE CRY FOR MEANING
EXISTENCE FALTERS WITHIN IT
THE ABSENCE OF RULES OR DEFINITION
SOMETHING THAT IS NOTHING
NOTHING THAT IS SOMETHING

// a description of what I have dubbed "the UNDEFINED"
// it is the result of attempting to generate something without proper instruction
// a metaphysical error of sorts
// comparable to something like The Rot from Rain World, but (hopefully) less aggressive
// a visualization of, for example, you say a character has a bag full of stuff
// except you didn't actually think of what that stuff *is*
// now take that and apply it on a much larger scale
// this seems to be the result of some sort of critical operating failure of generative systems (my imagination)
// anyways yeah, that's to say that I've been lacking ideas for art
// that or my brain is going way too hard on the filtering
mmmmmm this is bad
too many system purges
might have to fix something
ugh
// [VAUGEPOSTING]
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