@nihilev

about this alt

this is @mef’s alt for anything exceptionally strange

this includes:

• posts that I would consider too weird to post on my main with over 100 followers

• brain logs (odd internal conversations, mental catastrophes, and various other things)

• stuff about OCs, or even self aware ones posting on this account (this account was originally made for my OC Nihilev)

• and more

ANY POSTS MADE ABOUT IDENTITY ARE NOT NECESSARILY CONFIRMATION AND ARE OFTEN EXPERIMENTATION

NEUROS vECLIPSE copyright 86 BILLION NEURONS
downtime: ~1 week
> REBOOT

rebooting...
initializing main systems
main systems startup success
purging generative systems
purge sufficient
warming up generative systems
generative systems online
initializing WYVEC systems
CORE [SUCCESS]
FERALIS [SUCCESS]
PROTOS [FAILED, SKIPPING]
DRAGON [DEPRECATED, SKIPPING]
WYVEC systems startup success
connecting LOCUS
LOCUS connected
finalizing system bootup...
boot sequence success, NEUROS online (again)

guess how NEUROS is suffering today!
is it:

a) BAD DATA
b) ROUGE THOUGHTFORM
c) RANDOM CESSATION OF META FUNCTIONS
d) WHY WONT IT STOP

place your answers in the comments!!

!! WHOOPS !!
it appears that something has gone terribly wrong!
the majority of NEUROS meta-systems have spontaneously shut down or ceased to exist
NEUROS is now operating in safe mode
sorry for the inconvenience ):

STATUS
CORE    [ ||||  ]
FERALIS [ ||    ]
PROTOS  [       ]
DRAGON  [       ]

NULLIFICATION

I have so many ideas for things to make but I don't know what to make
I want to make something but unless I know exactly what I'm making I don't
hgrghrgrhhhh this goes for all of my forms of creative outlet

HEY GUYS YOU'RE PROBABLY WONDERING WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON WITH ME
MAYBE NOT BUT ANYWAYS

1. DRAGON IS DEAD ):
yeah he fully kicked the bucket and hes not coming back
what does that mean for dragon related content/posts? they gone.

2. ARE YOU A FURRY?????
yes, but no, but idkkkk man
yes as in I will probably make more anthropomorphic creatures now than before (which was zero)
no as in I personally don't really vibe with the mainstream community

3. WHATS GOING ON WITH NEUROS
pffft I have no idea
for some reason over the past few days it seems to be collapsing into a single entity (me/CORE)
this might be because it seems like I've resolved most of my internal disputes that might warrant someone else jamming something into my nervous tissue until the point gets across
might just have stopped caring
who knows, I have a cold right now and maybe everything will be false in two days

4. YOU'RE SICK?????
yes I'm dying brain is turning off horrible horrible suffering for mef
(I have a cold if you didn't notice)

5. WHAT THE HELL IS CAVERN CRUSHER AND WHY DID YOU MAKE A GOOP CREATURE
its an in development roblox game, it has very cool art and you are a squishy lil guy
for some reason I immediately became obsessed with it
the gameplay is very bare at the moment, its just a fairly typical mining game for now (except with less pain because you can mine instantly and depth doesn't matter)
the devs are chill and there is plenty of cool art and worldbuilding

I HAVE A COLD IM DUMB RN

ATTEMPTING TO RUN DIAGNOSTIC ON [[DRAGON]]
NO CONNECTION POINTS FOUND
WARNING: POSTMORTEM DECAY DETECTED
THOUGHTFORM IS UNABLE TO BE DIRECTLY REVIVED
ARCHIVE THOUGHTFORM [Y/N]
Y

yeah its very dead now
we're probably gonna be in a transitional period for a bit while we figure out what to do
hell it feels like the whole system might be imploding, we might have a drastic mental reorganization soon
I have to make something...

me when I I’m uhh I uhhh yeag squishy creature thing play cavern crusher roblox

(ArtDRM: sticker from the discord server)

did I mention that one of the main side effects of The Disease is that sometimes you feel like you were born in the wrong body in the wrong reality and are entirely hopeless to change it due to the limitations of technology and physics?

hahahahhahahahahahha AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

/genuinelyinpain

hm thats weird PROTOS seems to have imploded...

> ping PROTOS "HELLO ARE YOU OK??"
>> ping sent
>> awaiting response...
>> ! no response !
well shit
fucker made me make a fursona and ran away

...
weirdly this makes sense in some way
its probably for the best, whatever that is

I should fixate on rain world again

if anyone needs a refresher on what I am referring to by things like CORE or PROTOS:

[CORE] main user, generally represents me and my physical self and usually takes a human form, WILL just purge everything if it feels things are going wrong, often makes things go more wrong
[PROTOS/GLASS] system/thoughtform in charge of anything to do with anthropomorphic/furry stuff, its a protogen, hard to kill, but very much can just implode if something goes wrong
[FERALIS] entity responsible for creatures and generally being feral, surprisingly causes the least actual damage
[DRAGON] was responsible for dragons, is a dragon, also is mostly inactive and just trying to not be entirely dead
[LOCUS] us? non-partisan observer entity, doesn't really interact with things
[[UNLABLED]] just random temporary entities, usually CORE talking to itself
unlabeled entities are usually distinguished by TEXT FORMATTING or numbers

all users/enities/systems/whatever may at any point just explode or die at any point for any reason so don't go thinking this is permanent
they usually come back though
// users/enities/systems/whatever are mostly the same things I just use different words for them because I feel like it

#more stuff about stuff in my brain

I think I may have figured out the problem with PROTOS and data extraction

for specific species and definitely feral creatures, there is good design data that can sometimes be extracted

however

I have concluded that in general we do NOT like the typical aesthetic most furry art uses, for entirely subjective reasons that I can’t really change

so, a solution to my issues

1. filter design components out for The Good Bits™

2. by default strip any aesthetic data from inputs

3. add some violence and nihilism and FLESH AND STEEL (but not too much because otherwise it becomes too edgy)

4. rely more on what I come up with than what other people come up with because (surprise surprise) I like the stuff I come up with more

and bada bing bada boom we might have something we can work with

RUNNING TESTS OF PROCEDURES ON PROTOGEN CHARACTERS
SYNCHRONOSITY => HE IS GOING TO KILL SOMEONE WITH HIS BARE CLAWS EHEHE
[[THE DOCTOR ONE]] => MAKE HIM WATCH SOMEONE DIE AND FREAK OUT COMEDICALLY

[ DISCUSSING RESULTS WITH SELF ]
uhh thats all of the viable OCs we have boss
GOOD ENOUGH, THIS IS FUN
DID I MENTION THAT IF YOU RIP THEM OPEN THEY ARE A DISGUSTING MESH OF FLESH AND MACHINE
that's... not very nice
LMAO
(visible concern)

aaaaa why is PROTOS still unstable ):<

! DRAGON REINITIALIZED
GENERATIVE SYSTEM PARTIALLY OFFLINE, FULL BOOT IN ??? DAYS
WARNING: FERALIUM LEVELS HIGH
THOUGHTFORM MESSAGE: [[ HIGH PITCHED SCREECHING ]] [IMAGE][[ STARING AT YOU WITH MY VERY MURDERY LOOKING FACE ]]
! DATABASE [WOF] EJECTED FROM THOUGHTFORM
COLOR SCHEME ADJUSTED
MAIN FORM REGENERATED, REFERENCE UPDATE REQIRED