@nihilev

about this alt

this is @mef’s alt for anything exceptionally strange

this includes:

• posts that I would consider too weird to post on my main with over 100 followers

• brain logs (odd internal conversations, mental catastrophes, and various other things)

• stuff about OCs, or even self aware ones posting on this account (this account was originally made for my OC Nihilev)

• and more

ANY POSTS MADE ABOUT IDENTITY ARE NOT NECESSARILY CONFIRMATION AND ARE OFTEN EXPERIMENTATION

sorry for being somewhat cryptic and edgy

I think maybe posting my mind's internal activity for the entertainment of 
strangers generally isn't the best idea

why the hell does operation of neural systems have to be so unintuitive sometimes
why yes, of course loudly declaring that something is dead because
it hasn't been properly active in months makes it come back
probably just to die again
or maybe to live
or maybe to die
who knows
anything I say about my brain has a half life of 2 to 8 weeks
cycles of unknown, why do I even talk about on here

SYSTEMS STATUS

[CORE] PURGING
[DRAGON] VIOLENT, REFACTORING SYSTEMS  // FUCK YOU WHY DO YOU KEEP DOING THIS [[ITS YOUR FAULT, YOU HAVEN'T CHANGED]]
[PROTOS] recalibrating
[FERALIS] influencing
[ABYSSAL] standby

OVERALL STATUS: guh

[!] full system decontamination complete

STATUS
[CORE] online
[ABYSSAL] online
[PROTOS] offline?
[FERALIS] online?
[DRAGON] DECEASED // status will be removed in future updates

systems returned to null

no matter how much I keep purging systems (for no good reason) PROTOS refuses to die and I’m so proud of it

[system update log]

generative systems spooled up

DRAGON system, core ejected: beyond repair
core replacement successful?

ABYSSYIAZ deity system reset
new system generated: ORDER, CHAOS, POWER, LIFE
relationships successfully formed
predicted drive power: significant

wait a fuckin minute
wizards
... I have an idea

when FLESH is MACHINE is FLESH is MACHINE is FLESH is MACHINE is FLESH is MACHINE is FLESH is ...
do: [U_SET.ALL]

you thought you were gonna see [neuros system logs] but instead you get:

[access denied]
:P
reason:
don't want to
actual reason:
see above
reason for not wanting to:
idk, you don't get to >:P

!! ALERT: ARE YOU SURE YOU WANT TO PROCEED WITH ACTION:
    DESTRUCTURE *NEUROS
! THIS MAY RESULT IN SYSTEM DAMAGE, SEVERAL SUBCOMPONENTS WILL RESIST !

USER HAS CONFIRMED
RELEASING STRUCTURE OF [WYVEC]
- RELEASING STRUCTURE OF [DRAGON]
- RELEASING STRUCTURE OF [PROTOS]
- RELEASING STRUCTURE OF [FERALIS]
RELEASING STRUCTURE OF [CORE]
RELEASING STRUCTURE OF [META]
- RELEASING STRUCTURE OF [SAFTEY]
- RELEASING STRUCTURE OF [SUBSYS]

CORE DISBANDED

USER REQUEST: PURGE INPUT CHACHES
PURGING ALL UNSECURED INPUT CHACHES...
DONE
USER REQUEST: PRIORITIZE INTERNAL DATA
DONE

SYSTEMS STATUS
[DRAGON] online, attempting to configure generative systems
[PROTOS] online
[FERALIS] online, attempting to maul something
[CORE] ::_://FROM_DESTRUCTION_COMES_LIFE://IF_WHAT_HOLDS_ME_TOGETHER_KILLS_THE_GARDEN:.\THEN_LET_ME_BECOME_FERTILIZER:/ restructuring primary systems to allow for more open operations, engaged FERALIS
GENERATIVE OPS: online, running

ULTRAKILL but instead of a robot you're a creature and you just run around
and kill and kill and its got nauseating camera motion and PSX horror graphics
yeeees haha I need this sooo bad

how hard would it be to make that a mod

[SYSTEM REPORT]
BIOS (biological systems) STATUS: DEGRADED
  PATHOGEN DETECTED IN SYSTEMS, SOME FORM OF SINUS INFECTION
  CURRENT TIME SPENT IN RECOVERY MODE: > 3 DAYS
  ESTIMATED TIME UNTIL RECOVERY: 1-2 DAYS

NEUROS:
  COGNITIVE FUNCTIONS MINOR DEGREDATION
  SUSBSYTEMS REPORT:
    "CORE is doing ok. There was a surge in FERALIS input I think, yesterday?
    long time analysis of DRAGON concludes that the system is well past its
    prime, unless it proves me wrong, it doesn't appear to be able to operate
    sustainably, resulting in bursts of activity that can last for hours or
    days, but then returning to dormancy for a period of days or even a whole
    month. PROTOS has been surprisingly stable lately, considering its nature.
    For the most part, it has been doing the most character generation in the
    past few months. I'm not going to override profile details, however, DRAGON
    has been becoming less prevalent in my identity."
    "also for some reason DRAGON really does not like elves ━━(￣ー￣*|||━━ "

HOLY SHIT GAMERS WE'RE GETTING SOMETHING

[system report]
Generative Systems: ONLINE
  Generative Subsystems:
    DRAGON: ONLINE, ~85% COHERENT
    PROTOS: ONLINE
    FERALIS: connection unstable, unable to verify status, online?
Simulation Composer: ACTIVE
Visual Coherency: 80-90%

Overall Status: Operating within acceptable parameters,
  simulation is online and stable

>> dump simulation data
[simulation overview]
World: Abyssiyaz
Location: Arctic Colony: New Yorkshire, 82°31'N 117°15'W
Active Characters: "NAME" [OPERATOR][ORIGIN]
  Core [CORE][META]
  Segment [PROTOS][META?]
  Synchronicity [PROTOS][ABYSSIYAZ]
  Askarran [DRAGON][ABYSSIYAZ]
Plot Activity: Attempting to establish...