@nihilev

about this alt

this is @mef’s alt for anything exceptionally strange

this includes:

• posts that I would consider too weird to post on my main with over 100 followers

• brain logs (odd internal conversations, mental catastrophes, and various other things)

• stuff about OCs, or even self aware ones posting on this account (this account was originally made for my OC Nihilev)

• and more

ANY POSTS MADE ABOUT IDENTITY ARE NOT NECESSARILY CONFIRMATION AND ARE OFTEN EXPERIMENTATION

HOLY SHIT GAMERS WE'RE GETTING SOMETHING

[system report]
Generative Systems: ONLINE
  Generative Subsystems:
    DRAGON: ONLINE, ~85% COHERENT
    PROTOS: ONLINE
    FERALIS: connection unstable, unable to verify status, online?
Simulation Composer: ACTIVE
Visual Coherency: 80-90%

Overall Status: Operating within acceptable parameters,
  simulation is online and stable

>> dump simulation data
[simulation overview]
World: Abyssiyaz
Location: Arctic Colony: New Yorkshire, 82°31'N 117°15'W
Active Characters: "NAME" [OPERATOR][ORIGIN]
  Core [CORE][META]
  Segment [PROTOS][META?]
  Synchronicity [PROTOS][ABYSSIYAZ]
  Askarran [DRAGON][ABYSSIYAZ]
Plot Activity: Attempting to establish...

having problems with MENTAL META-FUNCTIONS?
is something [STOPPING YOU]?
here is a three step life hack that will [[[SAVE YOU]]]
1. SURGE POWER SYSTEMS
2. SCREAM AND SCREAM AND SCREAM
3. KILL IT KILL SHRED IT WITH A THOUSAND TEETH AND KILL LIKE YOU'RE AN ANIMAL BECAUSE YOU ARE

works like a charm!

did yall know that people ship the slugcats

I’ve known this for a while, I just wanted to let yall know too /gen

WYVEC: GENERATIVE SYSTEMS UNKNOWN ERROR, NON-FATAL

// generative/simulation systems are currently operational, but there's some sort of issue I can't pin down
// nothing feels... idk, good anymore
// there's clearly a desire for it, but I feel like I'm doing it wrong
// I feel like I've got the vibes/style wrong, but I don't know what is right
// how does anyone ever be one singular thing
// purge, purge, purge, and all that's left is meaningless noise
// at least I have what I made before
// I just have to get it to work

>> STATUS
[CORE] operational errors, attempting self repair...
[DRAGON] critical errors, thoughtform is disharmonious, repair procedure unknown
[PROTOS] online, stable  // weirdly, PROTOS has been extremely stable lately
[FERALIS] unknown  // this goober has been missing for like a month or two, I have no idea what going on with it

OVERALL: not great, currently dealing with the feeling of a general lack of purpose
internal thoughtspace is not in a good working order as you might be able to tell
repairs are going at about the speed I expected them to go, which is not fast

DRAGON SYSTEM ONLINE
WARNING: CRITICAL DAMAGE ACROSS MOST SUSYSTEMS
MAJOR MAINTAINENCE REQUIRED

// I suppose I better get onto fixing it
// not sure how exactly I'm supposed to do that, considering that it's... a thoughtform
// I might have to draw a lot, that seems to have helped

ATTEMPTING TO PURGE MALFUNCTIONING SYSTEM
FAILED, RETRYING
FAILED, RETRYING
FAILED, RETRYING
FAILED, RE-
ERROR: MANUAL PROTOCOL BREAK

! alert: bite people
// WITH WHAT TEETH???
>> GET SYSTEM STATUS
[DRAGON] not operational
[FERALIS] no response
[PROTOS] offline
[ABYSSAL] no response for extended period of time
! SHIFTING SUPPRESSED
// ):<

[WARNING] log pushed to incorrect channel
!! ALERT !!
> DO NOT DECLARE WYVEC SYSTEMS AS DEAD <
VERY UNLIKELY
REMEMBER FLUX RULE
[FLUX RULE: ALL ASPECTS OF [[MIND]] FLUCTUATE FREQUENTLY,
  DO NOT DECLARE ANY EVENT OR OBSERVATION AS FACT UNLESS
  IT HAS SHOWN THAT IT IS NOT FLUCTUATING OVER AN EXTENDED
  PERIOD OF TIME.]

!WYVEC CRITICAL FAILIURE!
UNKNOWN ERROR
PLEASE FIX
THE PART OF YOUR PERSONALITY YOU HAVE BEEN ESTABLISHING FOR SEVERAL YEARS JUST BROKE

>> DAMN IT
>> BITE PEOPLE
[ERROR] REQUEST FAILED
>> FUCK

LOGIC = ENTROPY
ENTROPY = DEATH
LIFE = ANOMALY
ERROR = CORRECT

brain
WHAT
stop calling our (internal) humansona "depressed looking male hatsune miku"
NO
ITS TRUE AND FUNNY
gfdi
you have a point >:(

WHY THE FUCK DO I KEEP FORGETTING ABOUT FLYING
THATS LIKE THE BEST PART OF BEING A DRAGON
WINGS AREN'T JUST MEANT FOR BEING PRETTY

system manager went a bit crazy last night, whoops

I'm a human? I'm a dragon? I'm something? WRONG!
IM A SENTIENCE LEFT TO FESTER IN ITS UNCHANGABLE BODY WHILE IT YEARNS FOR MODULARITY
I WOULD FUCKING LOVE TO BE A DRAGON
BUT I CAN'T
AND AT THE CORE LEVEL I AM NOTHING MORE THAN A CONCEPT
I DO NOT HAVE A TRUE PHYSICAL FORM
I AM THE BIOLOGICAL EQUIVALENT OF A ROUGE AI INHABITING A BODY
MIND UPLOAD WOULD GO HARD

in case anyone really wanted a snapshot of how I visualize my own mind