@nihilev

about this alt

this is @mef’s alt for anything exceptionally strange

this includes:

• posts that I would consider too weird to post on my main with over 100 followers

• brain logs (odd internal conversations, mental catastrophes, and various other things)

• stuff about OCs, or even self aware ones posting on this account (this account was originally made for my OC Nihilev)

• and more

ANY POSTS MADE ABOUT IDENTITY ARE NOT NECESSARILY CONFIRMATION AND ARE OFTEN EXPERIMENTATION

CORE    [ ||||  ]
DRAGON  [ |||   ]
PROTOS  [ ||||  ]
FERALIS [ ||    ]

ALL SYSTEMS ONLINE
NEUROS META-SYSTEMS PURGE AND RESET IN PROGRESS (not a bad thing)

>> get diagnostic CORE_THOUGHTFORM_ACTIVITY
> ACTIVITY DIAGNOSTICS
    CORE    [ ||||  ]
    FERALIS [ |||   ]
    PROTOS  [       ]
    DRAGON  [ |||   ]

what
>> get diagnostic DRAGON
> DIAGNOSTIC OF DRAGON
    META-THOUGHTFORM: OFFLINE, FILE INOPERATIVE
    GENERATIVE SYSTEM: ONLINE, ACTIVE
    MAIN DATABASE: OFFLINE, CRITICAL ERRORS
    ENERGY INJECTOR: ONLINE, ACTIVE

    OVERALL STATUS: PARTIAL FAILIURE, CONTINUING TO OPERATE OK OTHERWISE

mf what
istg this thing is Schrödinger's dragon
except the main thoughtform is inoperative
its "body" is completely offline but its still interacting with NEUROS
...
it's annoying that it really won't stay dead for very long after I'm like "Yup, its DEFINITELY dead now, its fucking rotting look at it."
DRAGON the entity is dead, DRAGON the system is (kinda) not, I think I need to just purge its database and fix some things
I don't know how comfortable I am with giving it a new body right now though

NOW INTRODUCING: NEUROS AGI[NO] GI[NO] INTELLIGENCE[GOOD ENOUGH]
USING STATE OF THE [EXISTENCE] TECHNOLOGY, YOU TOO CAN UTILIZE COGNITION
INCLUDES:
  HIGHLY ADAPTIVE PROCESSING STRUCTURE
  UNKNOWN MEMORY LIMIT (WE HAVEN'T REACHED IT YET!)
  VOID GENERATIVE PROCESSES
  ADVANCED SELF PRESERVATION PROTOCOLS
  EMOTIONAL PROCESSING SUITE
  SCREAMING
  UNIQUE URGES
  HIGHLY OPTIMIZED PROCESSING SPEED
  EFFORTLESS AUTOMATED MULTI-THREADING (BACKGROUND PROCESSES ONLY)
  A TERMINAL
  FLESH
  STRANGE PRIMAL REQUIREMENTS TO HAVE A DIFFERENT EXTERNAL FRAME
  AUTOMATIC DAMAGE DIAGNOSTIC ALERTS
  OPERATIONAL SAFTEY SYSTEMS
  EXISTENTIAL AWARENESS
  ENTITY FRACTURING
  SYSTEM-REGULATORY META-SYSTEMS AND PROTOCOLS
  [REDACTED]
  EMERGENCY OPERATION PROTOCOLS (UNTESTED)
  CASCADING LOGIC PROCESSING
  AND MUCH MORE!!!
PRICING BEGINS AT [PRODUCT TRANSFER UNAVAILIBLE]

CAN I PLEASE GO 400 MPH IN AN ENDLESS VIOLENT SKY PLEASE

NEUROS vECLIPSE copyright 86 BILLION NEURONS
downtime: ~1 week
> REBOOT

rebooting...
initializing main systems
main systems startup success
purging generative systems
purge sufficient
warming up generative systems
generative systems online
initializing WYVEC systems
CORE [SUCCESS]
FERALIS [SUCCESS]
PROTOS [FAILED, SKIPPING]
DRAGON [DEPRECATED, SKIPPING]
WYVEC systems startup success
connecting LOCUS
LOCUS connected
finalizing system bootup...
boot sequence success, NEUROS online (again)

guess how NEUROS is suffering today!
is it:

a) BAD DATA
b) ROUGE THOUGHTFORM
c) RANDOM CESSATION OF META FUNCTIONS
d) WHY WONT IT STOP

place your answers in the comments!!

!! WHOOPS !!
it appears that something has gone terribly wrong!
the majority of NEUROS meta-systems have spontaneously shut down or ceased to exist
NEUROS is now operating in safe mode
sorry for the inconvenience ):

STATUS
CORE    [ ||||  ]
FERALIS [ ||    ]
PROTOS  [       ]
DRAGON  [       ]

NULLIFICATION

I have so many ideas for things to make but I don't know what to make
I want to make something but unless I know exactly what I'm making I don't
hgrghrgrhhhh this goes for all of my forms of creative outlet

HEY GUYS YOU'RE PROBABLY WONDERING WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON WITH ME
MAYBE NOT BUT ANYWAYS

1. DRAGON IS DEAD ):
yeah he fully kicked the bucket and hes not coming back
what does that mean for dragon related content/posts? they gone.

2. ARE YOU A FURRY?????
yes, but no, but idkkkk man
yes as in I will probably make more anthropomorphic creatures now than before (which was zero)
no as in I personally don't really vibe with the mainstream community

3. WHATS GOING ON WITH NEUROS
pffft I have no idea
for some reason over the past few days it seems to be collapsing into a single entity (me/CORE)
this might be because it seems like I've resolved most of my internal disputes that might warrant someone else jamming something into my nervous tissue until the point gets across
might just have stopped caring
who knows, I have a cold right now and maybe everything will be false in two days

4. YOU'RE SICK?????
yes I'm dying brain is turning off horrible horrible suffering for mef
(I have a cold if you didn't notice)

5. WHAT THE HELL IS CAVERN CRUSHER AND WHY DID YOU MAKE A GOOP CREATURE
its an in development roblox game, it has very cool art and you are a squishy lil guy
for some reason I immediately became obsessed with it
the gameplay is very bare at the moment, its just a fairly typical mining game for now (except with less pain because you can mine instantly and depth doesn't matter)
the devs are chill and there is plenty of cool art and worldbuilding

I HAVE A COLD IM DUMB RN

ATTEMPTING TO RUN DIAGNOSTIC ON [[DRAGON]]
NO CONNECTION POINTS FOUND
WARNING: POSTMORTEM DECAY DETECTED
THOUGHTFORM IS UNABLE TO BE DIRECTLY REVIVED
ARCHIVE THOUGHTFORM [Y/N]
Y

yeah its very dead now
we're probably gonna be in a transitional period for a bit while we figure out what to do
hell it feels like the whole system might be imploding, we might have a drastic mental reorganization soon
I have to make something...

me when I I’m uhh I uhhh yeag squishy creature thing play cavern crusher roblox

(ArtDRM: sticker from the discord server)

did I mention that one of the main side effects of The Disease is that sometimes you feel like you were born in the wrong body in the wrong reality and are entirely hopeless to change it due to the limitations of technology and physics?

hahahahhahahahahahha AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

/genuinelyinpain

hm thats weird PROTOS seems to have imploded...

> ping PROTOS "HELLO ARE YOU OK??"
>> ping sent
>> awaiting response...
>> ! no response !
well shit
fucker made me make a fursona and ran away

...
weirdly this makes sense in some way
its probably for the best, whatever that is

I should fixate on rain world again