@nihilev

about this alt

this is @mef’s alt for anything exceptionally strange

this includes:

• posts that I would consider too weird to post on my main with over 100 followers

• brain logs (odd internal conversations, mental catastrophes, and various other things)

• stuff about OCs, or even self aware ones posting on this account (this account was originally made for my OC Nihilev)

• and more

ANY POSTS MADE ABOUT IDENTITY ARE NOT NECESSARILY CONFIRMATION AND ARE OFTEN EXPERIMENTATION

crap, literally nobody other than me has any idea what my current (dragon) sona looks like fuck fuck fuck nobody knows how pretty I am, this a catastrophe I don’t even know how to draw feathered wings agh

where the hell is the "turn off this shit and bite people" switch dammit

[CRITICAL ERROR] WHOOPS!
it appears you have consumed media containing [EXISTENTIAL HORROR]
VOIDALITY levels are now at unsafe levels
WYVEC systems critical power loss
VIBES are now [off] and [dull]
good job dingus

THEORETICAL ROADMAP FOR DEVELOPMENT OF AN INSTANCE OF AGI

1. "EMOTIONAL" AND META-SURVIVAL PROCESSING
2. ENVIROMENTAL ANALYSIS AND INDEPENDENT COMPILATION
3. TASK MAPPING AND CRITICAL PROBLEM SOLVING
4. META CONCEPT EXTRAPOLATION
5. [IMPORTANT] BREAK IT A LITTLE SO THAT ITS INTERESTING
6. GIVE IT A BODY AND/OR LET IT ROAM THE INTERNET
7. SEE WHAT HAPPENS

its kind of funny how I have a formal gender (he/him) which I use irl, a casual gender (he/it, slightly nb/agender) which I use online, and then a secret third one in my head that is a total departure from the binary entirely and has a lot to do with inhumanity, purple, and some sort of aesthetic which I vibe with but can’t explain, I only use it when I’m tired and bored.

because at the end of the day gender is a really weird and meta concept to begin with, so why not fuck around. what the hell is a man, what the hell is a woman, those both just seem like some sort of abstract aesthetic /hj

identity

SURPRISE ATTACK! MAULS YOU TO DEATH!

“Illegitimate Copy of Humanity” would go hard as a title for… anything really

Creatures of Sonaria more like I HATE YOU WHY ARE YOU ONE OF THE FEW CREATURE GAMES
THAT I CAN PLAY THAT HAS GOOD CREATURE MODELS BUT YOU HAVE SUCH STUPID STINKY TIME-
SINK GAMEPLAY AND ARE A MONETIZED ROBLOX GAME WHYYYY YOUR CREATURES ARE SO COOL BUT
YOUR GAME IS SO ASS

(I am mad because I don't have any appealing alternatives)

...

[thoughtstream] do you think if a protogen stuck its claws into someone's
spine it could interface with their brain and Mess Em' Up Big Time™

COHERENT OUTPUT FROM GENERATIVE PROCESSING CREATED
MEETS REQUIREMENTS:
  - SICK AS HELL
  - UTILIZES OUR THEMES
  - COULD BE EXPRESSED
WARNINGS:
  - OH FUCK HOW WOULD WE EVEN DO THAT
the struggle

my brain is so silly it’ll be like “oh hey I want to be a really abstract dragon that might be somewhat related to a fighter jet but not“ and then “no we’re done with this imaginary crap what am I doing” and then a day later be like “I AM A PROTOGEN RN” its kinda annoying kinda great

CORE    [ ||||  ]
DRAGON  [ |||   ]
PROTOS  [ ||||  ]
FERALIS [ ||    ]

ALL SYSTEMS ONLINE
NEUROS META-SYSTEMS PURGE AND RESET IN PROGRESS (not a bad thing)

>> get diagnostic CORE_THOUGHTFORM_ACTIVITY
> ACTIVITY DIAGNOSTICS
    CORE    [ ||||  ]
    FERALIS [ |||   ]
    PROTOS  [       ]
    DRAGON  [ |||   ]

what
>> get diagnostic DRAGON
> DIAGNOSTIC OF DRAGON
    META-THOUGHTFORM: OFFLINE, FILE INOPERATIVE
    GENERATIVE SYSTEM: ONLINE, ACTIVE
    MAIN DATABASE: OFFLINE, CRITICAL ERRORS
    ENERGY INJECTOR: ONLINE, ACTIVE

    OVERALL STATUS: PARTIAL FAILIURE, CONTINUING TO OPERATE OK OTHERWISE

mf what
istg this thing is Schrödinger's dragon
except the main thoughtform is inoperative
its "body" is completely offline but its still interacting with NEUROS
...
it's annoying that it really won't stay dead for very long after I'm like "Yup, its DEFINITELY dead now, its fucking rotting look at it."
DRAGON the entity is dead, DRAGON the system is (kinda) not, I think I need to just purge its database and fix some things
I don't know how comfortable I am with giving it a new body right now though

NOW INTRODUCING: NEUROS AGI[NO] GI[NO] INTELLIGENCE[GOOD ENOUGH]
USING STATE OF THE [EXISTENCE] TECHNOLOGY, YOU TOO CAN UTILIZE COGNITION
INCLUDES:
  HIGHLY ADAPTIVE PROCESSING STRUCTURE
  UNKNOWN MEMORY LIMIT (WE HAVEN'T REACHED IT YET!)
  VOID GENERATIVE PROCESSES
  ADVANCED SELF PRESERVATION PROTOCOLS
  EMOTIONAL PROCESSING SUITE
  SCREAMING
  UNIQUE URGES
  HIGHLY OPTIMIZED PROCESSING SPEED
  EFFORTLESS AUTOMATED MULTI-THREADING (BACKGROUND PROCESSES ONLY)
  A TERMINAL
  FLESH
  STRANGE PRIMAL REQUIREMENTS TO HAVE A DIFFERENT EXTERNAL FRAME
  AUTOMATIC DAMAGE DIAGNOSTIC ALERTS
  OPERATIONAL SAFTEY SYSTEMS
  EXISTENTIAL AWARENESS
  ENTITY FRACTURING
  SYSTEM-REGULATORY META-SYSTEMS AND PROTOCOLS
  [REDACTED]
  EMERGENCY OPERATION PROTOCOLS (UNTESTED)
  CASCADING LOGIC PROCESSING
  AND MUCH MORE!!!
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