@nihilev

about this alt

this is @mef’s alt for anything exceptionally strange

this includes:

• posts that I would consider too weird to post on my main with over 100 followers

• brain logs (odd internal conversations, mental catastrophes, and various other things)

• stuff about OCs, or even self aware ones posting on this account (this account was originally made for my OC Nihilev)

• and more

ANY POSTS MADE ABOUT IDENTITY ARE NOT NECESSARILY CONFIRMATION AND ARE OFTEN EXPERIMENTATION

SYSTEMS STATUS
[DRAGON] online, attempting to configure generative systems
[PROTOS] online
[FERALIS] online, attempting to maul something
[CORE] ::_://FROM_DESTRUCTION_COMES_LIFE://IF_WHAT_HOLDS_ME_TOGETHER_KILLS_THE_GARDEN:.\THEN_LET_ME_BECOME_FERTILIZER:/ restructuring primary systems to allow for more open operations, engaged FERALIS
GENERATIVE OPS: online, running

ULTRAKILL but instead of a robot you're a creature and you just run around
and kill and kill and its got nauseating camera motion and PSX horror graphics
yeeees haha I need this sooo bad

how hard would it be to make that a mod

[SYSTEM REPORT]
BIOS (biological systems) STATUS: DEGRADED
  PATHOGEN DETECTED IN SYSTEMS, SOME FORM OF SINUS INFECTION
  CURRENT TIME SPENT IN RECOVERY MODE: > 3 DAYS
  ESTIMATED TIME UNTIL RECOVERY: 1-2 DAYS

NEUROS:
  COGNITIVE FUNCTIONS MINOR DEGREDATION
  SUSBSYTEMS REPORT:
    "CORE is doing ok. There was a surge in FERALIS input I think, yesterday?
    long time analysis of DRAGON concludes that the system is well past its
    prime, unless it proves me wrong, it doesn't appear to be able to operate
    sustainably, resulting in bursts of activity that can last for hours or
    days, but then returning to dormancy for a period of days or even a whole
    month. PROTOS has been surprisingly stable lately, considering its nature.
    For the most part, it has been doing the most character generation in the
    past few months. I'm not going to override profile details, however, DRAGON
    has been becoming less prevalent in my identity."
    "also for some reason DRAGON really does not like elves ━━(￣ー￣*|||━━ "

HOLY SHIT GAMERS WE'RE GETTING SOMETHING

[system report]
Generative Systems: ONLINE
  Generative Subsystems:
    DRAGON: ONLINE, ~85% COHERENT
    PROTOS: ONLINE
    FERALIS: connection unstable, unable to verify status, online?
Simulation Composer: ACTIVE
Visual Coherency: 80-90%

Overall Status: Operating within acceptable parameters,
  simulation is online and stable

>> dump simulation data
[simulation overview]
World: Abyssiyaz
Location: Arctic Colony: New Yorkshire, 82°31'N 117°15'W
Active Characters: "NAME" [OPERATOR][ORIGIN]
  Core [CORE][META]
  Segment [PROTOS][META?]
  Synchronicity [PROTOS][ABYSSIYAZ]
  Askarran [DRAGON][ABYSSIYAZ]
Plot Activity: Attempting to establish...

having problems with MENTAL META-FUNCTIONS?
is something [STOPPING YOU]?
here is a three step life hack that will [[[SAVE YOU]]]
1. SURGE POWER SYSTEMS
2. SCREAM AND SCREAM AND SCREAM
3. KILL IT KILL SHRED IT WITH A THOUSAND TEETH AND KILL LIKE YOU'RE AN ANIMAL BECAUSE YOU ARE

works like a charm!

did yall know that people ship the slugcats

I’ve known this for a while, I just wanted to let yall know too /gen

WYVEC: GENERATIVE SYSTEMS UNKNOWN ERROR, NON-FATAL

// generative/simulation systems are currently operational, but there's some sort of issue I can't pin down
// nothing feels... idk, good anymore
// there's clearly a desire for it, but I feel like I'm doing it wrong
// I feel like I've got the vibes/style wrong, but I don't know what is right
// how does anyone ever be one singular thing
// purge, purge, purge, and all that's left is meaningless noise
// at least I have what I made before
// I just have to get it to work

>> STATUS
[CORE] operational errors, attempting self repair...
[DRAGON] critical errors, thoughtform is disharmonious, repair procedure unknown
[PROTOS] online, stable  // weirdly, PROTOS has been extremely stable lately
[FERALIS] unknown  // this goober has been missing for like a month or two, I have no idea what going on with it

OVERALL: not great, currently dealing with the feeling of a general lack of purpose
internal thoughtspace is not in a good working order as you might be able to tell
repairs are going at about the speed I expected them to go, which is not fast

DRAGON SYSTEM ONLINE
WARNING: CRITICAL DAMAGE ACROSS MOST SUSYSTEMS
MAJOR MAINTAINENCE REQUIRED

// I suppose I better get onto fixing it
// not sure how exactly I'm supposed to do that, considering that it's... a thoughtform
// I might have to draw a lot, that seems to have helped

ATTEMPTING TO PURGE MALFUNCTIONING SYSTEM
FAILED, RETRYING
FAILED, RETRYING
FAILED, RETRYING
FAILED, RE-
ERROR: MANUAL PROTOCOL BREAK

! alert: bite people
// WITH WHAT TEETH???
>> GET SYSTEM STATUS
[DRAGON] not operational
[FERALIS] no response
[PROTOS] offline
[ABYSSAL] no response for extended period of time
! SHIFTING SUPPRESSED
// ):<

[WARNING] log pushed to incorrect channel
!! ALERT !!
> DO NOT DECLARE WYVEC SYSTEMS AS DEAD <
VERY UNLIKELY
REMEMBER FLUX RULE
[FLUX RULE: ALL ASPECTS OF [[MIND]] FLUCTUATE FREQUENTLY,
  DO NOT DECLARE ANY EVENT OR OBSERVATION AS FACT UNLESS
  IT HAS SHOWN THAT IT IS NOT FLUCTUATING OVER AN EXTENDED
  PERIOD OF TIME.]

!WYVEC CRITICAL FAILIURE!
UNKNOWN ERROR
PLEASE FIX
THE PART OF YOUR PERSONALITY YOU HAVE BEEN ESTABLISHING FOR SEVERAL YEARS JUST BROKE

>> DAMN IT
>> BITE PEOPLE
[ERROR] REQUEST FAILED
>> FUCK

LOGIC = ENTROPY
ENTROPY = DEATH
LIFE = ANOMALY
ERROR = CORRECT

brain
WHAT
stop calling our (internal) humansona "depressed looking male hatsune miku"
NO
ITS TRUE AND FUNNY
gfdi
you have a point >:(

WHY THE FUCK DO I KEEP FORGETTING ABOUT FLYING
THATS LIKE THE BEST PART OF BEING A DRAGON
WINGS AREN'T JUST MEANT FOR BEING PRETTY