trying not to be suicidal is impossible when i’m stuck in a house with my mom and she keeps on saying that I should not be a mess and that I should behave. I’m trying to behave and stop being a mess but i keep on getting memories of the fights my mom had with her 20 million boyfriends and that one fight that sadly ended my dad’s life. She has made my life impossible to live and I still want to die just so I can end the pain that I have been dealing with. Hoping that I will never see my mom again knowing that she is a abuser, a lier, a bitch and a hoe, and just a fucked up person in general. But no matter how many times I cut myself hoping I can die I still somehow live on just to deal with more shit
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really hope you can get out of this situation ASAP… when you do you should feel very proud for not ending it all and instead you kept going
as someone who also has lots of memories of fighting & was also self-destructive im really proud you’re out here fighting. once you’re out it’ll be so worth it to just distance yourself and live
I really hope you’ll be able to get out soon- why can’t people just… ignore things they don’t like about others? its not like your mom is immediately personally affected by that…
My mom is similar, but I’ve learned to live with it (I just have 2 years and i’m off to college)
glad you’re still trying to not be suicidal :) very sorry for your loss. really hope you find a better place <3