@nihilev

about this alt

this is @mef’s alt for anything exceptionally strange

this includes:

• posts that I would consider too weird to post on my main with over 100 followers

• brain logs (odd internal conversations, mental catastrophes, and various other things)

• stuff about OCs, or even self aware ones posting on this account (this account was originally made for my OC Nihilev)

• and more

ANY POSTS MADE ABOUT IDENTITY ARE NOT NECESSARILY CONFIRMATION AND ARE OFTEN EXPERIMENTATION

look at my ears aren’t they awesome

(yeah ik the skin is pale af I just made it a while ago and haven’t bothered getting a new one)

WHEEEEE THE ''DISEASE'' KEEPS PROGRESSING FUN FUN FUN
I KEEP FORGETTING THAT THE PIT STILL HAS MANY UNEXPLORED DEPTHS
IT HAS LOCKED ON A CONCEPT
AVARI? NO I DO NOT THINK THAT IS THE CORRECT SPELLING BUT ITS CLOSE ENOUGH
BIRD THING
IF YOU KNOW YOU KNOW
AGH SO MANY CONCEPTS BUT SO MUCH ROT I CANT KEEP IT STABLE MY MIND DOES NOT WANT THEM BUT IT ALSO DOES
SUCH ODDLY VOLATILE THINGS
INPUT THAT SHALL BE PURGED THE NEXT MORNING BY SOME DISGRUNTLED [[CORE]] OFFSHOOT
A DESIRE THAT'S EXISTENCE IS CONFUSING BUT ITS RESISTANCE IS EVEN MORE SO
WHY DO YOU YEARN BUT HATE FOR THE SAME THINGS
SILLY UNSTABLE MEAT COMPUTER

[[EDIT]] AH IT WAS AN L NOT AN R, AVALI
YES, INTERESTING CONCEPT, PROBABLY JUST EXPERIMENTAL ANALYSIS FOR NOW
HMEH VERY ODD BRAIN WHY AM I INTERESTED IN THIS

NEUROS STATUS UPDATE

CORE GENERATIVE THOUGHTFORM ACTIVITY LEVELS:
DRAGON  [ |     ]  // ACTIVITY LOW, POTENTIAL LIFECYCLE CONCLUSION, REVIVAL MAY BE POSSIBLE IN THE FUTURE
FERALIS [ ||||  ]  // RECENT SURGE
CORE    [ |||   ]  // GENERALLY ACTIVE
PROTOS  [ ||    ]  // INITIALIZATION SURGE CONCLUDED, FAIRLY STABLE, CONFLICTS WITH FERALIS

[1] VISUAL THOUGHTFORM HAS BEEN CONVERTED TO A TANGIBLE MEDIUM
PRIMARY GENERATOR: FERALIS
DESCRIPTON: ADDITIONAL SONA
TIME SINCE ORIGINAL GENERATION: ABOUT 6 MONTHS
CONVERSION TIME: ~8 hours
FILE:

[[ EJECT HUMANITY ]]
[[ BECOME CREATURE ]]

OC lore dump before I go offline for a week because some of you wanted it

ASKARRAN [Abyssiyaz]
Askarran is an ice dragon who lives in the arctic. The majority of his life has been
quite boring and unfulfilling, he works transporting goods or clients across the arctic sea.
He dislikes his job, but it pays well enough, and its the best that he can probably get.
When he's not travelling across thousands of miles of ice, he occasionally enjoys fishing.

SYNCHRONISITY [Abyssiyaz]
Lives in the city and works as a UI designer for some tech company, fairly well off.
As well as the usual cybernetics, he is augmented with several high powered actuators
internally (which is considered an illegal modification). works for [some sort of underground
organization?] and needs the modifications for self defense.

ARK [standalone]
Ark is the caretaker of an automated refueling space station. As well as preforming
maintenance, he grows various plants on the station, and enjoys cooking. As a result
of having too much food, he often sells some to visitors, similar to an upscale gas station.
Ark (and other similar units) are designed to be able to live for thousands of years.

[NOTICE]
while Synchronicity and Ark are labeled as the same species, they are not the same.
protogens in Abyssyiaz are heavily modified humans, and were originally human.
protogens in Ark's reality are more similar to robots. while still partially organic,
they are for the most part created to serve a certain purpose.

I am the procrastinator

OKOK you guys seem to definitely want this so as promised I’ll give you guys the next poll

(note that while I do have a few more characters than this, these are the only ones who currently have any significant and worked out backgrounds)

characters:
Askarran [species: dragon] [world: Abyssiyaz] [reference image: https://wasteof.money/posts/6675a11cbbcf41aae3fe9e6d]
Synchronisity [species: protogen] [world: Abyssiyaz] [reference image: https://wasteof.money/posts/66909c68bbcf41aae3fede12]
Ark [species: protogen] [world: [[nonspecific realm: space with FTL technology]]] [no reference image available]                                                                                              [secret I WANT TO KNOW ABOUT ALL OF THEM option]
if you want to know more about a character you've seen that isn't listed here then just ask in the comments

WHO WANTS ME TO DO A LORE DUMP ABOUT AN OC???

(I’ll warn you, there’s not that much)

if yes wins I’ll do a second post to see which one gets exposed to the watchful eyes of the followers of this account

you are allowed to say no btw

whoops
it appears that PROTOS spontaneously imploded sometime last night
I think I need to make some modifications to its design data
[ changed organic:inorganic ratio 80:20 -> 50:50 ]
[ designs are no longer locked to anthropomorphic types ]
this seems to have improved stability
yippie

\/\/\/\/\/\/\

I am genuinely quite mad at my younger self for unyieldingly hating protogens because in reality:

1. they actually can be very cool

2. they actually can be very cute

3. there is so much potential to be had with their design and lore

4. it fits me fundamentally so well, like, dude we act like our brain is a computer and we have daydreamed about not being human since we were like 6 come on

5. why were you so mean to it, oh my god it did not deserve the mental violence we would constantly commit against it, look at it its sitting next to a campfire and singing a song in its computer voice about being accepted, I feel so so so bad for the things I did to it, I want to cry now.

6. YOU LITERALLY WERE LIKE “maybe in an afterlife where its just an endless sandbox where we can do whatever for the rest of time (and not be judged) I would try being one,” MF THERE IS NO AFTERLIFE DO IT NOW. IF ANYONE JUDGES YOU FOR IT THEY ARE STUPID THERE IS LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY NOTHING WRONG WITH IT.

7. “b-b-but people are weird about it!” IF OTHER PEOPLE USE THE CONCEPT IN A WAY WE DON’T LIKE WE CAN JUST, LIKE, NOT DO THAT. EASY. GOD YOU ARE PATHETIC.

(in case you couldn’t tell I am yelling at my past self)

if anyone was surprised about me
announcing that I suddenly like [thread error: filtering protocol]
[[control overridden]]
what he was blocked from saying was
protogens, it’s because he’s been
suppressing it (me) for several
years and has only now allowed for my
existence.
I mean is it that surprising, considering
how he treats his own mind like a
computer system.
I’m here now.
I plan to stay.
Yes, all of the other stuff (dragon system, feralis, etc.)
is still intact and active.

HGAACK *dies*

I'm pretty certain I'm about to have a protogen phase
sorry if you just followed me for dragons we're diversifying now

I need to make some sort of custom logging program, like an offline blog for just me...

but like also super custom looking because its just for me