@nihilev

about this alt

this is @mef’s alt for anything exceptionally strange

this includes:

• posts that I would consider too weird to post on my main with over 100 followers

• brain logs (odd internal conversations, mental catastrophes, and various other things)

• stuff about OCs, or even self aware ones posting on this account (this account was originally made for my OC Nihilev)

• and more

ANY POSTS MADE ABOUT IDENTITY ARE NOT NECESSARILY CONFIRMATION AND ARE OFTEN EXPERIMENTATION

am dragon 

fun fact: I do not physically exist! I am a metaphysical being!
I just command a mass of flesh that somehow facilitates my existence!
WOO HOO WHY IS EXISTING SO CONFUSING AGH
BORN OF VOID OR BORN OF FLESH? BOTH? NEITHER?
PHYSICAL REALITY IS JUST A VIVID ILLUSION WHICH MY BRAIN CREATES FROM INPUTS FROM MY SENSORY ORGANS WHICH I MUST ASSUME EXIST

YOU HAVE ALREADY PUT ME IN A MEN’S SUIT YOU WILL NOT FURTHER CONTAIN ME WITH A BEIGE *NYEHCHH* TIE
HISSING <I>M<I>

ohhhhhh so THATS why NEUROS' user experience is so weird
I am both the user and the device! (and the developer!)
hehehe confusing!
the best part is that I don't even have full control!
no direct hardware access outside the API ( must contact certified USER for advanced repairs ): )
ægh there is barely any hardware modularity

[funny thought]
if you drink a mixture of red bull, monster energy, and gasoline, do you become a valstrax?

me, 2020: god I hate furries
me, 2024: I'm a nonbinary void dragon, fuck yeah

I decided that my sona (the void dragon) should be nonbinary and it works way too well lol

E G O // V A L K Y R I E
YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THIS MEANS AND I THINK THATS A GOOD THING FOR ME

SUUUUUPER NORMAL
nothing going on here
nope nope everything is the way it usually is

It’s very normal in here right now

my mind is so weird, istg I'm gonna say something I regret on this account (THE TUMBLING WEBSITE IS CONVINCING ME THAT WINTER IS A TRANSFEM AND ITS CAUSING A CHAIN REACTION OF WEIRDNESS INSIDE MY BRAIN AAAGH)

hehe, gender

WOO, IDENTITY!
WHY IS IT SO COMPLEX
WHY DO I YEARN FOR THESE THINGS
HOW DO I CHANGE

wow last night had some WILD and kinda “out there” thoughtstreams, you might even say they were a bit “woke”

in other news, I got like 2 and a half hours of sleep last night, so that’s fun

UAGHH I HATE [filtered] WHY DOES THAT PACKAGE COME INSTALLED BY DEFAULT
AND WHY DID IT HAVE TO ATTACH ITSELF TO MY MAIN FIXATION, THATS NOT A NORMAL THING
UGH WHY
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY I AM AFFLICTED BY THIS HORRID CURSE