@nihilev

about this alt

this is @mef’s alt for anything exceptionally strange

this includes:

• posts that I would consider too weird to post on my main with over 100 followers

• brain logs (odd internal conversations, mental catastrophes, and various other things)

• stuff about OCs, or even self aware ones posting on this account (this account was originally made for my OC Nihilev)

• and more

ANY POSTS MADE ABOUT IDENTITY ARE NOT NECESSARILY CONFIRMATION AND ARE OFTEN EXPERIMENTATION

<I>M<I> ← has brain full of things

I think I’ve committed what Super Earth would consider a thoughtcrime

POST CONTENTS: Helldivers 2, dragons, shipping
if it wasn't clear enough this post is going to be exceptionally strange
you have been warned, run.

in Helldivers 2 you don’t see the faces of most characters other than a few of the staff on your super destroyer, so for characterization you pretty much have to rely on voice lines.

there are two aircraft typically deployed from your super destroyer, the fighter jet (Eagle-1) and the extraction shuttle (Pelican-1)

for some reason I immediately decided that I should ship the pilots (even though I never ship characters and am not typically interested in romance at all)

a few minutes ago my brain came up with the absolutely ingenious idea of:

hey, we barely have any actual physical representation of these characters
...
plane dragons

yep, first it started shipping them, and now its shipping them as (non-anthro) plane dragons (based on the vehicles they pilot obviously)

The rot consumes.

system status: VERY FERAL DRAGON, WILL KILL YOU.

NEUROS CONVERSATION LOG:
[1] man I really need to bite something as hard as I can
[1] but what could I do that with...
[2] ...
[2] aren't like, dog toys specifically designed for that
[1] y'know what, never mind

doing this to CORE

ok fed
stabbing you with the WEIRDNESS
WRITHE IN PAIN YOU ENTROPIC SHIT

[normal speak: for the past few months I have been (occasionally) experimenting with
furry/anthro stuff internally, due to how adjacent it is to many parts of my identity
(the dragon/creature part), and how widespread it is. after many simulations (what I
call my excursions into my imagination), generation tests (making characters, worlds, 
etc.), and analyses, I have come to the conclusion that its not really for me, I 
simply don't vibe with it. This in no way means that I won't respect or appreciate any
of it.]

NEUROS EXPERIMENT REPORT: THOUGHTCOMPOUND ANTHROZINE TESTING AND SYSTEM RESPONSE
results may not be final

anthrozine: thoughtcompound attributed to hybrid anthropomorphic entities [in regular speak: furry-esque stuff]

most usages of the compound usually resulted in spontaneous generation or change in thoughtforms
effects of compound are hard to control, and often result in destabilization
some events resulted in the creation of invasive thoughtforms
many events resulted in the temporary modification of CORE's form, whether by or against its will
thoughtcompound has a low or even anti-resonant effect on several thoughtforms and entities, including DRAGON

experiment summary: while the compound has some unique and potentially usable outputs,
systems generally do not resonate much with it. These experiments may have increased
tolerance to the thoughtcompound, but high levels often cause unwanted events to occur.
systems could be modified or trained to respond better to the compound, but this has
been deemed not worth it, as it ultimately clashes with much of our own personality
and themes.

ugh we're gonna be going through so many filters and catalysts again
I don't even know where I get this stuff it just kinda gets manufactured randomly

(my mind is a large complex of odd machinery and characters in the middle of a supposedly endless void)
(I may be in the control room, but the buttons merely send requests, and nothing has to comply unless it wants to)
(it usually all works fine, its just another visual/mechanical representation of my mind, but sometimes things get a bit... out of hand)
(the representations are relatively fluid, but it usually sticks to something close-ish to this)

it appears that destroying internal security systems has also destroyed the
security systems I wanted to keep, I don't know if this is a good thing
or a bad thing, but oh well

thoughtstream:“How to manufacture plastic cubes”
is unable to continue
without data:”How to make bio plastics”

known auto-trigger concepts:
dragons - with correct parameters, immediate attention, with very wrong parameters, immediate displeasure
cubes - always have a sort of gravity to them, so simple yet so satisfying
the ocean - its cool, definitely a mood, cool creatures, not `white person beach vibes` though (ick)
the void - existentially resonant and relatable, too much can get depressing quickly however
big complicated machines that do something - ooooooooo, unless its murdering things
buttons - desire to press, the more complex the better

I swear I have to babysit my mind sometimes, one entity will bring in [HAZARDOUS THOUGHTFORMS] and then another will attack it for doing such a thing, and then I have to get both of them to stop it, and I’m the creature, they’re both rendered as humans lol.

nvm I’m some sort of creature

I don’t have a face!